It's me again !

Wow, three months without posting here...

So what are the news? I finally validated my school year, I'm now a fully qualified primary school teacher... hard to manage, but I did it. Here's one thing I didn't fail in my life this year.

Because apart from that, this 2006 first half was kinda crappy... problems with my best girl-friend (notice the "-", I still remain single and it's been more than a year now... oh yeah... :'( long-time single loser I am) , problems with my last ex (met her, she ignored me totally, how great!!), etc etc etc

And now the worst!! I'm getting really attracted by a girl I met in my school, but she's waaaay too perfect for me! I'll never try with her but at least it's nice to see my heart still functions :)

Or is it that nice?



World Cup is on its way, no big expectations as for France.. this year it's for England, Germany, Brazil, Argentina or The Netherlands...

As for music, went to great gigs recently: Epica, Paradise Lost, Fear Factory... soon the Graspop festival with Guns'N'Roses, KoRn, Opeth, Alice In Chains.... and the Muse gig a week later ^^

Nothing much to say for now, I'm almost on holiday and life feels good... for once :D

In Lose We Trust

Here we come again.

Actually, I think that hardly anyone reads in here, so let it go, i'll post my feelings, not even in the aim of sharing them with anybody, but just to let it flow, because right at the moment, I really, really need it.

The work formation sucks.. I'm gone in work experience in a week, and I'm not prepared. Looks like I'm gonna fall. I'll have 3 to 4 year-old kids, and I feel it's gonna be hard to keep my strength during three weeks . I visited the school this morning, looks nice tho. Wait and see as they say.

I have to hand in a work research, approx. 30 page long. I'm very late concerning it.
We have some "course validation works" to do as well. Including a big one in French. No time for that as well.

Why such a lack of time? Because we have a lot of courses. And when I come back in my student room, I'm dead tired to work.

And most of all, I have a very weak mood these times. And it's gonna be even weaker this week. Tonight I told her I still love her. Got rejected... I knew this would happen, but something inside of me was telling me "try, there's still a hope". Failure. The worst is not the pain caused by the fact that i know we'll never be together anymore. I had my chance once, I failed, so be it.

But it's the fact that I feel I gave everything to her during the last 2 years, and now she tells me I never try to understand her (easy when you have to try to interpret things by yourself when the girl is too secret) , that she has to make big efforts not to hurt me, that she considers me too intrusive (yeah, call that intrusion when you only are interested in what your friends do), that I'll have to be a "laugh friend"...
No way. I can't stand being considered that way.

I really, REALLY feel like shit now. I somehow felt she was the girl who appreciated me the most. 1st: I'm wrong, she really thinks I'm a psycho. 2nd: if she really was this one (as she showed it many times), then what about the others? I'm fed up, so fed up... I feel like an orphan... goddammit, I was always thinking about her, and now I lost her as a friend. Whatever she says, she told me tonight "no you haven't lost me".... insofar as she considers me only as a "laugh friend", then the complicity we used to have is broken. I had never been so close to any other girl before. I'll have to learn to live differently.

It's hard, fucking hell, it's bloody hard.

You call this an angel????????

Hello there!!

Some news from your favourite trout master!!

I finished my work experience yesterday.... It went on quite well, despite a first evaluation that was negative... I've almost been called a wanker... very hard to get on working after this... but I did, and rather well. I've been visited a second time, yesterday (yes, on the very last day LOL) and the evaluation was positive :)
Yesterday night was full of emotion, some kids cried, because they wouldn't see me anymore :(
Three weeks, it creates strong links, doesn't it?

But this isn't what the title of this entry is about.
Tuesday morning, I had a car accident. Not serious... well, it really could have been, but I'm alive, and not seriously injured. (just a neckache).

On the motorway, a truck hit me from the right.... I went spinning round, hit another car and the security barrier. Car destroyed, big big big fear, but I'm alive. And THIS becomes really important when you've experienced those few seconds when you don't control the car anymore and you really think you will die. And after this, you don't fear that much another visit, another evaluation or what the fuck. You say thank you, and you say "next week I'm gonna see Edguy and DragonForce live and I'll enjoy it twice as much."

Now I'm on holiday for two weeks, time to think to get a new car.

Send Me an Angel.. or something....

Dunno why, just thought I'd post a little something in here, it's been such a long time....

Yes, I'm back in France, it happened more than a month ago, and damn I miss Romania... Romania itself, but also the Erasmus people and the life I was living out there.

Now I have to work (I should be either working or sleeping to prepare for tomorrow's work now... *roll* ), three weeks of work experience... and not "accompanied", alone!!! Alone!!! Where the heck am I going?

My love life is a total mess, I thought I was in love with somebody, but I realise nothing will happen, even from my side, then I dunno what to think about Lauren, and I don't see anyone new... what I would need is a new self, but don't dream boy, you'll keep on being the lousy Thierry.

Looks like things will never change, will they?

Downs, downs... and still stronger than ever!!!

Hiya folks!!! First of all, really sorry for the delay... I had quite a busy time here in Romania...
Here is what happened to me in the last month (oh God, already a month since last post....).. well, I lost my wallet, with credit card and French driving license... I`m still waiting to get my new credit card, luckily I have friends who can withdraw money for me here....
Then,the following week, I`ve been robbed off my newly bought digital camera.... so you ppl could guess how my mood could be....

But still, my mood is really great... I`ve just spent a whole week in Barcelona, and it was really awesome... sunny (I bathed in the sea in late October, incredible!!!), and we made a lot of visits (Gaudi is a genius), went to the football match (Barca 5 - Real Sociedad 0 :D ), etc etc... so good!!

And now I`m back in Timisoara... and the mood is still great... we planned a lot of things for the second half of our trip... like going back to Budapest, visiting Dracula`s castle... and of course GOING OUT AND DRINK!!! :D

About life here, well... it`s all about going to the schools to teach French (or just observe, it depends), going to the Uni for useless courses (but still fun!), and going out to eat... as we`ve got no kitchen in the Student Residence... a bit tiring sometimes, as it looks like we`re eating nothing but fast food crap... We play billiard, listen to music, watch DVDs.... life is cool here, I must admit. Only annoying to wake up at 6.30 to work twice a week (other days it`s later ^^ )

The only thing I miss here, actually is my family and friends... some of them I really want to hug tight... but well, one can`t have everything!!!

So this is it for today, take care my friends, and don`t forget to leave me a small comment or email, it`s always nice :)

Ups and Downs...

Heya Folks!!! Sorry for not posting a lot... feels like I`m not too often on internet, and when I am, I spend too much time on MSN LOL!!!

Things have gone from really bad to good. At first, we were really bored like hell... nothing to do...
Then, other Erasmus students came, and from then on, we have parties, drink cheap beer in pubs, etc etc.

About the job, it`s OK so far, a bit boring too as we only observe for the moment...

We`ve been to Belgrade last week, it was really really nice, a nice town, nice people...

As for myself... well, my mood is going quite bad I must admit..... from dreaming of Lauren crying because of me to not knowing what to think about **** (put name here, you know who she is, but I wont put her name just in case she sees it by mistake...)... I love her, but I know I`ll never get her... and I see her flirting on a forum... quite hard, but I need to understand for fuck`s sake!!!!! As for Romanian girls... they are really beautiful, but it`s a bit... too much if you see what I mean... walking in the street is like seeing a f****ing mode parade...

Oh God how much I hate the music here... it`s always the same tunes playing... lucky me I have my MP3 reader so that I can find an island of good music, here and there ^^

I`ll try to keep you informed as much as I can, but I can`t promise anything ;)

until then, take care my dear friends!!!

Angels or Demons (ARISE!!!!)

1st post from Timisoara...

Many things to say, I dunno where to begin..

So Friday, the trip... really long and exhausting... luckily I had a friend who drove us at the airport.... and luckily we had little Devil Andi in Budapest to guide us through the maze of metros, etc. I must thank her again and again for this!!!
The train.... damn, 6 hours, THAT was really long. We`ve been controlled at least 4 times, and bothered all the time by ppl wanting to go the toilet... as we didnt have seats, but were in the corridor of the train.. at least for the first 3 hours.

Arrived in Timisoara, a certain Florin helped us to get to the accomodation, to change money, get a taxi, etc. Really, really helpful, like a guardian angel. We went to eat and drink a few beers with him (Timisoara Bergenbier rules :p )... and we finally learn he is an auto-proclaimed tourist guide, and that he`s expecting money for his services... we didnt have much to offer and he seemed dissatisfied with the money we gave him. Sorry, but we wont spend 3 months hooked to a tourist guide. We have other things to do in Romania.

Our room... quite small for 2 people, no kitchen whatsoever, no fridge, shower and toilets in the corridor... but it should be OK in the end.

Yesterday we wanted to go to Belgrade... but thanks to your dear Me, we lost the only train as I didnt change the time on my mobile-alarm clock.... so we went back to bed LOL.

Then, we went for a walk in the city... and got lost. Luckily, taxis aren`t expensive.

At night, we went for the football match... the local team is in first league, and the tickets aren`t expensive either, so we`ll go there often I think.

They`re setting a new money in, so it makes it harder for us to get used to it... we are millionaires in ROL, but not in RON.... LOL

Today, city centre again, without getting lost... tomorrow, we`ll go at the university and French Cultural Center to see what we`ll be doing during these 3 months.

Quiite a lot of work I suppose and expect...